Quite the read. This feeling is familiar. I’ve been there too.
And I realise that, in our lives, just like not every action of ours is done for ourselves, so also as live, we do not live every moment for ourselves.

I tell you, taking that walk, buying that book, and sitting over a coffee, taking in the morning air, reading a book—as you draw in each breath, you’d realise, this moment is for me.