Hello!
When I receive your article, I couldn't leave a private message, like I always did. (Medium must be having an issue there.)
I wanted to inform prior, that there were lots of errors and typos in your article. And your title, too, was lengthy. I went ahead to format the title better, and made some edits too. Rewriting sentences, rephrasing paragraphs to sound clearer and concise. Corrected spelling errors and eliminated curse words, before finally publishing.
I'll suggest having a reread to see the changes made, and I hope all that's fine by you.
Regarding your story, it is an interesting read. It takes courage to open up like that. And I'm pleased you finally arrived at a place where you're happy and at peace with yourself.